Poor,poor Ivan


I can never understand hate.

I can’t understand hating a human being I don’t know.

I just can’t and I never will.

I understand love

I understand love but can’t describe that warm feeling when you are close to someone you love.

I can understand that feeling when you look at a baby, so pure and innocent, that feeling of wanting to become a better man.

Love is what I understand

Yet so many have no notion about the concept of love. All they see is hate,death and destruction.

It is because their own life is so pathetic and insignificant that the only way they feel they can make a mark is by destroying everything that is pure and innocent.


Poor,poor Ivan Rozenbaum you were only 8 months when you were killed in Auschwitz.WHY,WHY,WHY????


The dressmakers of Auschwitz


Haute Couture fashion is not something you would associate with Auschwitz, yet there were about 23 women who worked as dressmakers, producing dresses and haute couture fashion.

These female  prisoners served as the staff of the “Upper Tailoring Studio,” a private dressmaking shop for the wives of SS officers stationed at the facility. They were chosen for their skills, or because they had connections with existing dressmakers.

The names of only a few women are known. One of those women was Alida Vasselin(nee Delasalle-pictured above). she was a French communist, a member of the French resistance and a a corsetière. She was arrested arrested in 1942 for hiding anti-Nazi leaflets in the corsets she sewed.

Another French  communist resistance member was Marie-Louise Colombain, who was also set to work as a dress maker.


Both women survived the war. Alida died on April 28, 1986,and Marie died on December 17, 1998.

The Auschwitz commandant’s wife, Hedwig Hoess, had first employed two local Polish seamstresses to sew in her villa overlooking the concentration camp. Hedwig referred to the  life in the villa as  “paradise”. where she could indulge in luxury items.


These included fabrics and fashions selected from the vast amount of plundered goods which was  being  in warehouses in the camp,only a short distance from her  flower garden. The prisoners carried out the sorting of goods, would often come across belongings of their own murdered relatives. The wives of other SS officers and also some of the female guards grew envious of Hedwig’s wardrobe, Hedwig then decided to open the elite dressmaking workshop – the Upper Tailoring Studio – inside the camp itself.

One of the Auschwitz seamstresses, a Slovakian dressmaker named Lulu Gruenberg, had difficulties controlling her resentment at the indifference and arrogance of the women for whom she was making clothes to survive.

It is said that one time when Hedwig Hoess came for a fitting with one of her young sons and while his mother’s back was turned, Lulu looped a tape measure around the boy’s neck like a noose and whispered, ‘Soon you are going to hang; your father, your mother and all the others’,” according to Lucy Adlington, the fashion  historian who  uncovered the facts about the ‘Tailoring studio’

The seamstresses were forced to produce two outfits per client a week. They created new designs, and altered high-quality clothes brought into Auschwitz by Jewish deportees. Many SS clients ordered beautiful evening gowns in fashionable styles, to be worn on social occasions like dinner parties, music concerts and cinema visits. None of the women had any issues wearing the gowns  of murdered innocent women, or clothes created by enslaved prisoners.

For the 23 seamstresses it was at least a small chance to survive.Although they were not immune to beatings and harsh treatments outside the studio. How many women survived I don’t know.

Hedwig Hoess re-married in Germany and immigrated to the USA, where she died on 15 September 1989 (aged 81)


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Ivor Arnold Troostwijk-10 weeks old Holocaust victim.


I so vividly remember the day my wife told we were expecting out first child. The only way to describe it was magic. And that is how new life should be celebrated as a magical moment, young expecting parents should only have to worry about the health and well being of their baby.

But what if you are expecting a baby and you don’t even know if you will survive leave alone your child.

Annie Troostwijk-Samuel and her husband Abraham Troostwijk knew in In October 1943 that their baby was due in 6 weeks time.

The couple got married on April 9, 1941. On March 17 , Abraham notified the governing Church authorities about his plans to marry Annie Samuel. Although they were Jewish it was standard practice that  the church authorities would also be notified. Abrham did this in writing.



In October 1943 they decided to move from Arnhem to Amsterdam, in the hope that they would be safer there and their son could be born in a safe place. They left their other child,one year old daughter Greetje behind in a safe hiding place.

Alas Amsterdam was not the safe place they thought it would be. The couple decided to take  the gamble: and go by train to Belgium.But they were arrested at Den Bosch train station and .ended up in a detention centre.

November 13,1943 was a cold Saturday but it was also the day that little ray of Sunshine Ivor was born in the prison hospital.

One month later, Annie, Abraham and Ivor were transported to Westerbork.


On 25 January 1944 Annie, Ivor and 946 other Jews were put on transport to Auschwitz. Even the heavens were sad that day because on January 25,1944 there was a Solar eclipse.

Annie and Ivor arrived three days later in Auschwitz and were killed straight after arrival.

It is not clear what exactly happened to Abraham or when he was put on transport, but he died March 28,1945.

Greetje survived and lives now in Israel.

There is a picture of Ivor available but I decided not to use it because even though it is a picture shortly taken after his birth, it is still distressing to see this tiny infant knowing he would be dead 10 weeks later.


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The Löb siblings


In the 1920’s it would not be uncommon ,in the Catholic south of the Netherlands, that 1 or 2 children in a family would join a monastery or convent. But 6 from the 8 children was rare. What makes it even more rare with  the Löb siblings that their parents had been Jewish. but they had converted to Catholicism.

Three of the Löb  brothers went to the Koningshoeven Abbey in Berkel-Enschot and two sisters to the nearby Koningsoord Trappist convent.

In 1926, when the oldest son George entered the Cistercian Abbey of Koningshoeven. Robert and Ernst would soon join their brother. George would take the name
Father Ignatius, Robert was Brother Linus and Ernst, Father Nivardus. The
girls in the family soon followed suit the oldest daughter Lina entered a
Trappistine monastery where she was later joined by her twin sisters. Lina
became Mother Hedwig, Dora became Mother Maria Theresia. The  youngest, (by a margin), of the six, the frail Louise, joined her sisters  there in 1937, henceforth she became known as Sister Veronica.

Only Hans and Paula, the two youngest children stayed at home . The Löb parents had died before the Netherlands was occupied.

Catholic Jews, such as the Löb family, did not appear to be in any imminent danger from the German occupiers.

However on 2 August 1942 5 of the Löb siblings were arrested The immediate cause of the arrest of the Löb family  was the letter of protest against the deportation of Jews that was read aloud in churches by order of the bishops in late July 1942. A declaration was being read in churches across the Netherlands, on behalf of the Archbishop. The declaration was a protest at the deportation of Jews.

The 5 had been urged to flee by other Nuns and Monks but they refused, The 3 Brothers said the Nazis threatened to kill ten priests if the brothers didn’t give ourselves up.

The 5 Löb siblings  were transferred to Amersfoort, Westerbork and finally to Auschwitz where, in the autumn of 1942, George and Ernst were killed on August 19, 1942. The other 3 were all killed on September 30,1942.

Louise managed to evade persecution, Several times she was summoned but she always received help, once by  the Jewish Council.And another time by a Doctor who worked at the monastery. Unfortunately because of being frail and sickly she died on August 1,1944 due to Tuberculosis.

Hans,Hans the youngest brother was also arrested by the Nazis and sent to Auschwitz,
where he died in February 1945.Paula, the youngest child who had married was hidden by a Catholic family during the Nazi persecution,survived the war.

On 2 August 1942, 245 Jewish Catholics were arrested along with the Löb siblings. To the Nazis it didn’t matter if they had converted to Catholicism, in their eyes and according to their laws these people were still considered Jewish.


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Jewish Prisoner 2731. Auschwitz-1942.


2731 was the inmate number given to this girl. Nothing else is known about her, except that it is very unlikely that she  survived.

My heart broke when I saw this picture. A life wiped out only a picture that remains. Not a picture of a young girl dressed in a gown. Or a picture of a young girl having fun. No name, only a number.

Dear young lady, I am a father of another young lady. You may not have a known name but I will designate a name for you. It is not a usual name, more a pledge, but you can use it. I call you My Prayer, for henceforth you will be in my prayers, until I take my last breath.


2 Lives- One full of promise- One stolen life.

7 Days a week I’ll remember you.

3 Reasons to remember you. Your life;Your life disrupted, Your death.

1 Beautiful human being .

I am Fanny Cogan.


I am Fanny Cogan.

I was born on Saturday November 27,1937. Born in the city by the Seine, Paris, the city of love. And I was loved by those who knew me and saw me.

I was born on the same day as the revue Pins and Needles premiered at the Labor Stage Theatre on Broadway.

I am Fanny Cogan.

I was killed on December 9,1943 in Auschwitz. I was killed in a Gas chamber by people who hated me for no reason whatsoever. I was 6 , what did I do to them? I never met them before in my life. Killed, why?

I was killed on December 9,1943 the same day Edgar Allan Woolf, screenwriter who co-wrote the script for The Wizard of Oz died.

I am Fanny Cogan.

Despite the hate that killed me it is in love I will be remembered forever.





Death is just a heartbeat away.


The title is a line from a song by Gary Moore and Phil Lynott called “Out in the Fields”. Although the song has nothing to do with the Holocaust, the particular line though I used for the title, was a reality for millions.

Millions who were murdered for no reason but hate and a warped sense of superiority by the perpetrators.

There is no way that we can compare any of the ways used to slaughter these innocent lives. All the manners of execution were unfathomable. Be it the executions of the Einsatzgruppen, or the use of dynamite to experiment more efficient ways of killing or any of the other ways.

One method of extermination  stands out above all others, and that  was the mass killing in the Gas chambers. It was believed for a long time that the victims died quickly , but in fact it could sometimes take up to half an hour before they would die.

It only makes sense that the young and healthy would suffer longest in the Gas chambers.

Aside from the killing their last dignity was taken away from them before they entered the Gas chambers. They were told they were going to be showered and deloused and were ordered to strip naked, not in a private cubicle , but together with everyone else who were about to enter the “Showers”. Even that last bit of privacy and dignity was stolen from them, regardless what age they were.

Millions of last heart beats.

I have to believe though,that after they died they went to a better place. Although I am a reasonably religious man, this sentiment doesn’t have much to do with religion but more with spirituality. I have to believe this because if I knew they didn’t go to a better place, I just could not cope with that and would drive me insane. However that is my feeling on it and I fully appreciate and respect others thinking differently about that.



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Boy to Man-a Boy in a striped pajamas


Dear Iwan Rebałka, this is your date which is used to male up your statistics.

Born -February 6, 1925 in Kreis Krasnopilla, Russland—an area which is now the part of Ukraine.

Religion – Greek Orthodox

Job at time of arrest-Milkman

Deported to Auschwitz – August 20, 1942

Assigned number – 60308 marked as political prisoner. Red triangle.

Date of death -1 March 1943

Claimed Cause of death-perinephric abscess.

But you are not just data, You are a human being. Technically you were a man for 23 days, for just over 3 weeks you were a man. But an evil regime did not allow you to become a man. They arrested you for no apparent reason, you were seen as a lesser person. The called you a political prisoner.An enemy of the state. But whose state? It certainly wasn’t theirs, because they invaded and occupied your country. They were the enemy of your state.

You were only a young milkman trying to make a living.

They killed you by injecting a a phenol into your heart.

You just made it to manhood but really you were just an innocent boy ,dressed in a striped pajamas.




Victor Capesius, Pharmacist of Auschwitz


Medical Doctors generally work closely together with Pharmacists. During the Holocaust this was not much different.

Victor  Capesius was born to a doctor of German descent in 1907, in a part of Romania which then belonged to the Austro-Hungarian Empire. He studied in Romania and Vienna where, in 1933, he completed his doctorate in pharmacy. In 1943, Capesius was drafted into the German Wehrmacht where he initially served as an “SS pharmacist” in Warsaw. Later, he was transferred to Dachau and on 12 February 1944 he arrived in Auschwitz concentration camp, first as a locum but soon taking the position of chief camp pharmacist,after his predecessor was executed for “spreading defeatism.

Capesius worked closely with Josef Mengele , the pair were heavily involved in the selection of inmates for the gas chamber beginning in the spring of 1944 when the Hungarian and Transylvanian Jews were sent to the camp. He was the only SS selector who was recognized at the arrival ramp by Jews who had known him personally or through his pharmaceutical work before the war.

There are no well-documented links associating Capesius with the pharmaceutical industry during this time, but some documents refer to him as the “Bayer pharmacist in Auschwitz”. The reason for this could be that, in the 1930s, he was the official representative of Farbwerke Bayer-Leverkusen in Romania. Interestingly, Capesius had been reprimanded by his superior during this time for his anti-Jewish attitude and behaviour.

In Auschwitz, he had risen to the rank of SS-Sturmbannführer, in November 1944, and was in charge and control of the poisonous chemicals used in the extermination of the Jews, such as phenol and Zyklon B.

zyklon b

Whilst at  Auschwitz, he  stole valuables from the personal belongings of arriving Jews, and also secreted away gold pulled from the dental fillings of corpses. He had access to the gold because it was under the control of the camp’s dentists, with whom he shared his pharmaceutical dispensary. Capesius sent the stolen gold to his sister for safekeeping until after the war.

When Auschwitz was evacuated in 1945, Capesius managed to escape. He was caught by the British but released in June 1946. He lived, under his real name, in Stuttgart, only to be again imprisoned in 1946, having been recognised by an ex-inmate of Auschwitz. But, once more, he avoided prosecution. He was freed in 1947 and took employment as a pharmacist in Stuttgart. On 5 October 1950, Capesius opened his own pharmacy in Göppingen, which he opened by using the gold he had stolen from Auschwitz  His business (to which he also added a beauty salon) thrived, producing an average yearly turnover of DM 400,000.

A camp survivor, Hermann Langbein, and Germany’s first postwar Jewish prosecutor, Fritz Bauer, were persistent in trying to compile enough evidence to make a case against Capesius. As a result of their work, Capesius was arrested in Göppingen in early December 1959 and remained in custody without bail or bond. On 20 August 1965 he was indicted in the Frankfurt Auschwitz Trials by the Landgericht Frankfurt am Main Community for aiding and abetting the murder of at least four cases of 2,000 people. He was convicted and sentenced to nine years in prison. Capesius served only two and a half years and was released from prison in January 1968.

He died in March 1985 but he never showed any remorse for his crimes..


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My smile will last forever.

evaMy smile will last forever.

Your hate will disappear.

My smile only brings joy.

Your hate brings nothing but fear.

My smile warms people’s hearts.

Your hate brings nothing.

My smile is pure

Your hate is filth.

My smile is that of an Angel.

Your hate is pure evil.

Your hate killed me ,Eva Bruszt, aged 2. Born May 13 1942. In Budapest, Hungary.

Killed in June 1944 in Auschwitz.


My smile will last forever

Your hate will disappear.




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